To all my friends, especially otaku-ese, thank you for reminding me to keep going through life. I have always fancied myself a person who does best when I have a challenge put infront of me. The challenge is life, I became too focused on the smaller goals and challenges of life. I forgot to look at the big picture. Becoming confused because I was focusing on the subtopics and forgot what the topic was. My challenge is life I will work through it with joy and thankfulness in my heart. I am blessed with friends who will remind me of what is important. Once again, thank you!
My mom gave me this:
Some people feel guilty about their anxieties and regard them as a defect of faith but they are afflictions, not sins. Like all afflictions, they are, if we can so take them, our share in the passion of Christ. – CS Lewis

I don't know why I am who I am, just that God created me and for a reason. That God can care so much for me and still, at the same time, care just as much for everyone else in the world. My mind has no comprehention of how His works. I cannot know how He does all the amazing things that He does. Just that He does them for a reason. God is in control. I know this for certain...but I struggle with believing it. That, no matter all the hateful things I do, any sin that I think or act upon does not condemn me to hell because of Jesus Christ. I am a confirmed Lutheran, but have still so many questions about faith, doctrine, and religion in general. Opinionated, but confused, here I stand.

Then I think, "Why do I keep struggling with me, myself, and I? Why am I so selfish?" I keep thinking about why I am so selfish. Then, realize that all I am doing is thinking about myself again. What are other people going through and how are they, those should be my questions. But all I can do is stand here typing this because I am too pathetic and selfish to do anything else. I don't know why I am who I am, just that God created me and for a reason. I hope to find purpose in my life. I enjoy helping, but I don't feel I can ever help enough because of how selfish I am. I don't question my faith today, just myself...and why can I not do anything worth a dam. I am not kind, because I can't even help the ones I love. I am not generous, because I don't know what to give even though I could give. I am empathetic, but only to a point. I wish I could be more but it does not matter because I am not able to help anyway. I am ignorant because I am blessed beyond what I can comprehend. I do not love God with my whole heart, because I allow my affection for loved ones to become so stong that I let my mind wander away from Him. I am selfish because I enjoy compliments too much and pretend I can't accept them which is rude. I am a self pitting fool, but yet, God loves me. How I can even begin to understand how this is possible. In my own life I have trouble accepting those who have hurt me but yet they have commited many of the same sins I have. God has commited NONE and yet, He still loves me and saved me from eternal death. How can I accept this love freely given? This love is even shown to me through my friends, although they have faults. For we are all sinners and they accept someone like me. I cannot understand love that is felt for someone like me, with no true redeeming qualities.

I am sorry, my dear friends, for subjecting you to my pathetic life, I do love you all so much and thank you for such friendship that you have bestowed upon me.

I am not trying to seek attention just voicing my feelings that have been bothering me for quite some time. I have had a hard week, my cat died, mixed emotions about something important to me, and my Grandad is getting remarried - my grandma died 2 years ago, I miss her very much.

Thank you again.

Hello lovley friends it has been a long weak, *sigh*
But it is Friday! Hurah! Unfortunatly I can't go to the movies with friends until tomorrow but i get to mess with my little brother so that makes up for it!
I have a voice lesson and I get to WALK home ALONE after dark!!! I know to most of you that is quite normal, but I'm the sort little person who always gets told: "You're to little, you can't wlak alone!" "Your sister (who is only 15 months older than me) can walk alone because she's bigger than you." Ya ya well now I get to walk alone for once Haha!!!!!!
Well again I just decided to spurt out some randomness sorry to bore you all!
-anne-ime :heart

Edit: I didn't get to walk! My voice teacher drove me home, we live on the same street.

After thought:
- I wish they had a "flattered" mood...but I am emotional right now so it works...

I'm listening to a very funny romance part of Much ado about nothing.

Anywho tis been a long day, I was just reading ROmeo and Juliet in class.

Lots of Sheakspear today.

I don't have much else to say but I do with all of you lovley people a happy day!

Hello it's been a long day, we lost our cat today. She was more of 's cat and she took it hard. So, just pray for her please. It's been a long week for her and this didn't help.
A thankyou to everyone at K.M.T. for cheering her up, you guys helped a lot. anim8girl used to be the one who wanted to be left alone and you guys have helped her become more social and you guys steped up to the plate and were true friends tonight.


Have a great Ash Wedness day tomarrow, everyone.
-I'm giving up soda for lent.